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joiedecombatRough night.
My brother went to a party, and with his fiancee at work, I took the opportunity to get online.
This turned out to be a bad idea, because around 12:30 my brother got home, staggering drunk and pissed as hell that he hadn't been able to get through on the phone and get someone to come get him, and therefore had to get a ride instead.
He ranted for a full hour - first at his fiancee about how he'd tried to call and he'd gotten the bartender to give him quarters and he'd gotten her a free pass to the afterparty 'cause he thought she might want to go. Then at me when he realized I was upset. By that point I think his anger was cooling, or at least he was forgetting about it, because the point of his ranting at me wavered between trying to get me to speak my mind and talking about my current situation.
Nothing was really resolved - he was so drunk that I'm not sure he'll remember any of it anyhow - but some of the things that have been frustrating me lately got aired, and I'm not mad at him or anything. Mostly just drained.
Not happy with my situation, though. I'm here on my brother's good graces, and I'm trying not to wear out my welcome any quicker than I can help. If I can get a job, even if it's as a cash register jockey, then I can start saving money to get my own place, and build up experience for a better job. But in the three months I've been here, I've only gotten one callback. And I missed that one by going home for Thanksgiving.
They get married in March. I don't know what will happen if I still don't have a job by then - although at least by March I'll probably know if I'm going to Japan or not.
And amidst his ranting tonight, my brother told me that my mother has said I can't move back in with her unless I have a job or am willing to go to graduate school. Which I can't afford.
Not that I'm excluding grad school as an option, but the BA it was so important for me to get has done fuck-all for my hirability, judging by the volume of applications I've put out in the past three months with only one callback.
I don't have enough experience to be a desirable employee. But I can't get experience if no one will hire me. So I'm screwed.
And it doesn't help that everyone keeps talking like I could follow my brother's example and join the military. No. I am not yet desperate enough to consider that a viable option.
But I'm running out of ideas.
My brother went to a party, and with his fiancee at work, I took the opportunity to get online.
This turned out to be a bad idea, because around 12:30 my brother got home, staggering drunk and pissed as hell that he hadn't been able to get through on the phone and get someone to come get him, and therefore had to get a ride instead.
He ranted for a full hour - first at his fiancee about how he'd tried to call and he'd gotten the bartender to give him quarters and he'd gotten her a free pass to the afterparty 'cause he thought she might want to go. Then at me when he realized I was upset. By that point I think his anger was cooling, or at least he was forgetting about it, because the point of his ranting at me wavered between trying to get me to speak my mind and talking about my current situation.
Nothing was really resolved - he was so drunk that I'm not sure he'll remember any of it anyhow - but some of the things that have been frustrating me lately got aired, and I'm not mad at him or anything. Mostly just drained.
Not happy with my situation, though. I'm here on my brother's good graces, and I'm trying not to wear out my welcome any quicker than I can help. If I can get a job, even if it's as a cash register jockey, then I can start saving money to get my own place, and build up experience for a better job. But in the three months I've been here, I've only gotten one callback. And I missed that one by going home for Thanksgiving.
They get married in March. I don't know what will happen if I still don't have a job by then - although at least by March I'll probably know if I'm going to Japan or not.
And amidst his ranting tonight, my brother told me that my mother has said I can't move back in with her unless I have a job or am willing to go to graduate school. Which I can't afford.
Not that I'm excluding grad school as an option, but the BA it was so important for me to get has done fuck-all for my hirability, judging by the volume of applications I've put out in the past three months with only one callback.
I don't have enough experience to be a desirable employee. But I can't get experience if no one will hire me. So I'm screwed.
And it doesn't help that everyone keeps talking like I could follow my brother's example and join the military. No. I am not yet desperate enough to consider that a viable option.
But I'm running out of ideas.
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Date: 2003-12-20 06:51 am (UTC)Personally, I'm keeping my fingers crossed for the job in Japan. I think you'd be good at it, and I -know- you'd love it. I also think you've got a damned good chance at it.
But if that doesn't work? You can always stay with us for as long as you need. I even know someone who's got horses. ;)
Karla